Saturday, May 9, 2009

Happy Mother's Day

Before I was a Mom, 
I never tripped over toys 
or forgot words to a lullaby. 
I didn't worry whether or not 
my plants were poisonous. 
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
 
I had never been puked on. 
Pooped on. 
Chewed on. 
Peed on. 
I had complete control of my mind 
and my thoughts. 
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
 
I never held down a screaming child 
so doctors could do tests. 
Or give shots. 
I never looked into teary eyes and cried. 
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. 
I never sat up late hours at night 
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
 

I never held a sleeping baby just because 
I didn't want to put her down. 
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces 
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
 
I never knew that something so small 
could affect my life so m
uch.
 
I never knew that I could love someone so much. 
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
 
I didn't know the feeling of 
having my heart outside my body.. 
I didn't know how special it could feel 
to feed a hungry baby. 
I didn't know that bond 
between a mother and her child. 
I didn't know that something so small 
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
 
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night 
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. 
I had never known the warmth, 
the joy, 
the love, 
the heartache, 
the wonderment 
or the satisfaction of being a Mom. 
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, 
before I was a Mom .

2 comments:

The Chambers said...

This is beautiful Heather. I have never heard that before and it makes me want a child that much more! Thanks for sharing...it's a beautiful poem and you are a wonderful mother!

LeVander Family said...

yeah we were pregers the night I saw you, but we hadn't told the family yet. I was so sick and didn't eat any of my food that night:( the poor waitress thought she did something wrong!